poems. mine.


tula

In the shifting
of the beach shells
lies the secret whispers
of an ‘Us’ that never was.

The trickling of
each grain of sand
poured out our story
of an endless
summer night talking;
me,
huddled under the bedcovers,
while you were
blanketed by
the magic of a starlit night.

Eventhough apart —
we shared the beach.

Your voice was the
wind – sticky and sweet,
soothing me.
Your laughter were
waves that crashed
towards the shore –
tickling, teasing,
touching me.

As the night melted
into the dawn
and our giggles
lulled me to slumber,
I knew I would
hold this image of us
in place –
apart, but connected,
barely together,
joined by the shared magic
of Summer dreams
and innocence.

– 2:42 PM
– July 8, 2009

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One exercise in writing poetry is to write something you’re not feeling strongly about anymore. Revisiting old feelings, when you’ve found closure in them already. I admit to being a “fair-weather writer.” I rarely write poetry when the emotions aren’t high. But since last year, I’ve been training myself to write because I need to, and not because the emotions are there.

This poem has been one of those times. I forced myself to write it. It was difficult getting started, and even more difficult ending it. :p

Anyway, old memories back in 2004, I think.

Photo by me, sometime in 2007.

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Love encompasses all.

Today I saw my co-worker bring his 3-year old son to work. Today is his last day at work, and on the 24th he’ll be flying off to Singapore to try his luck at getting a job there. He’ll be leaving behind his son with his family as he pursues his career there. I could see in his eyes how much he’ll miss his son. He looks at his little boy with so much pride and joy and bittersweet nostalgia, too. He tells stories of how his son would follow him around everywhere he went, imitating his every move, every mannerism. Being a single dad, I bet going to the airport on the 24th will be one of the most difficult moments of his entire life. The Love is there, the admiration mutual.

My parents have been together for more than 30 years. They’ve gone through so many hardships and trials together. They’ve been wrongfully judged, but their love remains steadfast. Last Tuesday, they had a big argument. Hurtful words were exchanged, but they worked things out in the end. Yesterday, Daddy bought Mommy three dozen red roses. And tonight, they’ll be having a romantic dinner, just the two of them. Mommy was preparing for today as if it was their first date. =) I couldn’t stop smiling giddily along with her. Love survived after all the years of togetherness.

My sister broke up with her boyfriend last year, after 7 years together. This week, she found out something that was disturbing. Her first thought was to contact and talk to him. Despite the angry words that passed between the two of them, she still found comfort in him. Romantic Love was lost, but Love still exists. A more honest, platonic love, and in some ways, a deeper kind of Love.

Girl meets Boy. Friendship blossoms. Drama complicates things. Boy and Girl drift apart. Boy and Girl fall in love. Drama complicates things. Boy and Girl drift apart. Boy and Girl can’t let go. Boy and Girl get together. Drama complicates things. Boy and Girl hang on to their Love. It’s a new Love that is blossoming, both parties are still trimming, grooming to make it bloom beautifully, but they are getting there. Their Love keeps them strong. Their friendship makes it easy. Their Love is beautiful. Life is beautiful.

Love doesn’t have to be clear-cut and reminiscent of a fairytale. As Sharkboy once told me, sometimes challenges and setbacks make Love all the more worth fighting for. I’m not saying I’m an expert in matters of the heart. But I’m having fun feeling my way through it. And I’m glad I have someone who’s willing to be patiently by my side while I learn to Love selflessly and completely.

So this is for you. =)

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*photo and words are mine
A little something I wrote after I watched The Lakehouse last 2006.
I wrote this poem, not knowing I was dedicating it to more than just the characters of the movie.
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HEE. <3
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This is for you. =) HAPPEEEEEEEEEEEE. =)