Re-birth

A couple of weeks ago, I “celebrated” my Rebirthday. It’s a private date for me, no one’s ever found out about it, but it was the exact date when I had the worst heartbreak of my life.

I used to be this girl who believed in fairy tales and ever afters. I used to believe in destiny and knowing for a fact that someone is meant for you, that you will find that someone who will be your Forever.

I think it’s safe to say that I’m not that girl anymore. Not as naive anymore, not as wide-eyed. I remember wanting to hold on to the idealism, to the romance of it all. But somehow, over the years, it just slipped away. Maybe now, I have more realistic expectations, more grounded dreams.

I know now that Forever does not necessarily have to happen in one lifetime. Maybe, you find The One in your next life, or the life after that. Or maybe you did already, and now you’re just waiting to find him again.

I guess now, there really isn’t any room for that One Epic Love. Maybe that doesn’t exist anymore. Maybe all you can hope for is to find that one person you can share the same interests with. Find that one person you have MAD CHEMISTRY with. Find that person who makes you act like a loony in random moments. Maybe you don’t need GRAND gestures, or a life-changing moment. Maybe you just have to find that someone who makes you laugh endlessly.

Maybe you just need to find that person who you know is yours with everything that you are. And knowing that you are his too, with everything that he is.

And maybe, just maybe, that’s more than enough.

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Snowflakes on my Blog

Seeing my blog with snow left me nostalgic.
I used to be one of those people who didn’t understand why the Holidays always seemed to carry with it a tinge of melancholia. These days, I realize why Christmas can be this Season of Feelings, so much feelings.

It’s more of a combination of Nostalgia for more innocent Christmases, of Joy and Excitement for the coming celebration, of Sadness of people who you will no longer spend Christmas with, of Hope for people who you WILL spend it with, and Gratitude, blissful gratitude that we are even celebrating Christmas at all.

I guess, that’s the Magic of Christmas – it evokes all of these emotions, all of these moments, and memories. And it makes you want to get out there, away from the daily grind, so you can create even more memories and moments to be nostalgic for.